I haven't written in awhile because I have had a change in my situation. I have decided that atheism is lifeless and not good for me at all. I have switched over to theism, specifically Christianity and believe the Bible.
Jesus is God. I have faith that God has entered human history and that Jesus is God. That following Jesus is the path to God. I felt bad about giving people reasons not to believe in God. I was misrepresenting Christianity by saying things like "science and Christianity" are incompatible. I regret a lot and listening to Christians helped me learn that. Many of the things atheists ask are answered in scripture in particular the scriptures about the temptation of Jesus in the desert with the devil who asks 3 things of Jesus, to prove he is god, to rule earth like a king.
The reason why Jesus won’t stay dead is because he isn’t.
I am still studying science.